Christmas time again...

So this is exciting well to me it is, once again its close to christmas. (Merry Christmas, Sretan Bozic, Buon Natale, Joyeux Noel) so before I go on a crazee rant about the christmas shopping fiascos, my excitement. Ok so im being a tad unpolitically correct and totally not supposed to offend anyone gay, I mean it's my first christmas in total complete weird cute stupid love. Doesn't that sound exciting ... well it is! I don't know theres something about holidays that make songs like 'I never knew the meaning of Christmas- N*sync' and 'My only wish this year -Britney spears' yes totally old songs, but always good at christmas and to my point are both songs about needing love. It's magical woot. So that's my exciting news, oh yah going on 7 months, now theres a double celebration on NYE. heheh.

Now for ranting, not only should people not do last minute shopping when and if they had time months before and two they should learn to drive. Ok this last minute shopping is insane, its like shopping is going out of style and everyones running around all mad cow trying to buy whatever they can. Like fuck I went into Holt Renfrew and Coach and I havent seen that many people grabbing bags ... those poor bags... and it's like its not on sale you could have bought the same effing bag for mary 15 days ago but you decided that 5 days before christmas is a good idea. Now to go off of buying things, Christmas is waaaay too commercialized yes gift giving and receiving is awesome ... thats my style of love ... BUT some times the best give is the presence of a loved one or ones. So like stop teaching your kids to WANT WANT WANT. Spend it as a family, not all fucked up and crazee over buying things. There's black friday and boxing day for shopping both of which do not fall on Christmas. and three get used to it Christmas is the celebration of Christ which explains the whole mas of christ thing. So ok if you don't believe in Christ don't go around bashing it and calling it the holidays. I don't bash asian new year or anything else and call it a holiday. If you are anti christmas or anything like that don't celebrate it but don't christmas eve off or youre a fuck face, because there are people who think Christmas is important, so why not be human and give them their holiday and fuck off and have yours when it happens. Like seriously people are always like religion causes war and war is bad .. well if you all shut te fuck up and coexisted letting everyone live as themselves we wouldn't have to fight and bitch out other people. UGH!

anyways back to christmas shopping, I saw two accidents today in like 2 hours because for some reason which ive already gone over being a bad one, people are all insane trying to get into the malls, but its like drive normally because youll get a parking spot when you do! If you don't get that perfect batman toy or barbie or w.e the fuck for yours kids don't worry because if they complain on christmas you've rasied them wrong.

ooh and one more note since im listening to the song, all i want for christmas is a good song and doesnt need a revision especially by shitty girl bands. I think until an artist dies no one in their right mind should try to do a cover ... unless the song is shitty by the original!

PEACE & LOVE! MERRY CHRISTMAS (i don't care if you're not into Christmas, I'm wishing you a merry one anyway!~)

When the Ice Melts, the World Ends.

If I knew the day were going to end
Forever it would be the end
I’d only want to spend it with you
You’re more than a friend
You can’t put boy in front of that
No,
We’re past dating
And,
It’s more than love

You’re special to me
You’re the smile on my face
The tears when I cry
We don’t need anyone,
or anything to entertain us.
You’re everything I want to know,
and everything I need.
Maybe it’s me.
I melt like an ice cube
In a hundred degrees
Sitting on the beach

It’s fast
There’s no hope
Just a puddle
It dissolves
The sand turns dark brown
But it’s hot
The ice melted
It dissolved and disappeared
I don’t even know what that’s about.

If the day were to end
And it were our last night
Even if I spent it with you
My eyes would cry
Like the clouds to make a storm
For If I were never going to wake
And never see your face again
That would be the day my life would truly end.
That’s the day I’d dissolve.


-So yaaah I don't know I just kinda wrote that listening to snow patrol and i'm going to leave it at that-

Fly Away

I crossed the frontier, and mamma cried,
She said if you go now, you’ll never come back.
Those people are different,
We’re not the same.

I jumped the fence, and said forget all that mess.
I held your hand, our checkers meshed.
I’ve kissed your lips,
A thousand times,
But still you look different,
With wings on your back.
They’ll never disappear.
Their apart of you,
But I don’t mind.
You’re my eagle, with a checkered breast,
And I’ll let you fly.

Maybe one day mamma will see,
We’re not the only ones who jumped the fence.
We’re not only ones who forgot the frontier.
We are the same.
The war’s been over many years.
But if she can’t see,
And if her visions been blurred
With racism and hate,
I’ll still forgive her.

But until I stop loving you,
I’m a free spirit,
I only know of this love
I can’t continue in hate.
I can only strive for peace,
Which, with you I find.

So until that day of when it’s more peace,
And not pride.
I’ll take your wings,
And underneath them I’ll fly.

Bungalow 2

Recently I finished reading the book Bungalow 2 by Danielle steel and I have to say its actually a good read. At first I didn't find it very entertaining as it opens a story about a woman; Tanya Harris. She's in her 40s and a writer. As a younger reader i was thinking oh god, I'm reading a story about a 40yr old womans life and writing. So i'm reading about writing? Well the story develops when she agrees to do a movie in L.A. My first instincts that during the filming her husband Peter would be right and she would fall for L.A, plus Danielle Steel is known for romance so I thought Tanya would also cheat on her husband ... which yes would have disappointed me. I'm happy she didn't Tanya stayed as a faithful wife to her husband and three childern (17+) Well it turns out Peter's a cheater, Tanya then finds her self dealing with a divorce and letting herself love again. She goes through three more relationships which also tie into her writing more screen plays. The story by the 5th chapter really turned around for me, making me want to read until the very end. I cried at parts and smiled at others, this book's full of emotion and a good read. Way to Go Danielle Steel!~

Volim Te #1

This was written for my personal narrative class @ Douglas! I will be handing it in on Nov.12th.08!~

Oh you better not cry.
Close my eyes,
Are you sure?
Open my eyes.

He takes my hands,
It calms me down.
Our fingers cross
And our bodies touch.

My heart starts pounding.
My mind follows, racing.
Could it be true?
Look away.

Oh don’t cry,
Don’t cry,
Please don’t cry.
A tear drop slides down my face.

Look back.
His big brown eyes they smile at me.
His lips-
Well I’ll have another kiss.

Look away.
Don’t cry.
You’re never emotional
Two tears roll down my face.

He holds me tight,
In such a way which says I’ll never let you go.
Look back.
I hope you never let go.

I guess it’s really true.
Don’t cry,
Stop yourself.
A stream runs down my face.

Is it a yes?
My thoughts just need to stop.
My heart says yes.
Just say it then!

Concern comes across his face
Look away
No look back.
Hold him close, I don’t ever want to let go.

My hearts still pounding,
My mind continues racing.
I know it’s true,
But I’m afraid.

And so you’re crying,
You’re never so emotional.
Stop crying
Rub the tears from my face.

His big brown eyes
Those soft sweet lips,
He really is so cute.
I can’t look away.

Ok, I’m crying.
I haven’t stopped,
And that’s ok
He holds me close.

My eyes meet his
I feel his warmth
My lips touch his
They’re a perfect fit

Volim te
I whisper in his ear
I finally said it,
I know it’s true.

I love you.

MONOLOGUE: Smile Somebody Loves You

I don't im in playwriting so now randomly i just start monlogues!~

Smile Somebody Loves You

SCENE: Character is walking through the park with her very sarcastic friend, explaining her new found love.

CHARACTER: You know I finally started walking around with a smile on my face. (pause) No, Of course I’ve smiled before. This was more like smiling for no reason. Ok well there’s a reason. (pause) Ok, yes even no reason is a reason. Would you just listen to me? (pause) Thank-you, well I started smiling because… I’m in love. Yes, I swear, I’m in love. I don’t know how to define it. It’s like walking around always having one thought. (pause) Obviously I have more than one thought. Why are you so difficult? (pause) I’m telling you I’m in love. Total bliss, utter happiness, I’m in love. He’s always on my mind. He makes me giggle like a school girl. Every day I rush home just so I can talk to him. I cry when I don’t, it’s like something in my days missing. The best part is we never fight, there’s nothing to fight about. We agree about everything and anything we don’t … well we haven’t gotten there yet. He always knows how to make me smile. He’s the first guy I can actually picture myself marrying. I’ve never felt about this about anyone. (pause) John? No I never felt like this about John. Are you kidding? That was a joke. We were all drunk, no. I swear I was never serious. (pause) Yes I’ll give you ten dollars if you find out otherwise. So don’t you owe me ten dollars now? (pause) well you just said … but you’re not going to find out… so, yes you owe me ten dollars.

Black & Gold

Every time this happens, every time we fight; I come back here. I just end up sitting here by myself. Thinking about how much he pissed me off this time, about how much I love him. Why I even bother loving him. Why we fight all the time and how we always end up back to normal, whatever normal might be. Sometimes when I sit here, I wonder if we love each other or if were just attached together like a picture and its frame.

It’s funny really, how he tells me all the time that he doesn’t ever want to hurt me. He’d never hit me, but when I end up back in the garden its worse than being punched in the stomach. It’s like watching the rain fall, waiting for the sun to rise. Who knows how long it could be before the clouds pass. Sometimes their filled with thunder and vicious lighting, hitting the smallest village that no one knew existed. Other days its just rain, pouring buckets and buckets. Sometimes it’s only a couple hours before the sun creeps up through the clouds with an apology and I love you. But its days like these when I start thinking how many days do I need an umbrella over my heart. Maybe its time I ditched the umbrella and moved to a sunny place. But that’s just it. I’ve lived here for too long to move. I wouldn’t know where to go. Plus at this point I definitely don’t have the cash for a ticket.

I guess I’ll put down my umbrella, and dance in the rain until it goes away, because even when it’s raining; I’m still in love because every drop is pure sweet emotion.